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Open up my heart. . .

Alone in a room it's just me and you
I feel so lost 'cause I don't know what to do
Now what if I choose the wrong thing to do
I'm so afraid, afraid of disappointing you
So I need to talk to You and ask You for Your guidance
Especially today when my mind is so clouded
Guide me until I'm sure I open up my heart

Sometimes we don't know know what to do with our lives.  There might be situations that pop up, or things that you arrive at that you didn't see coming.  People will look at you and think you have so much certainty in your life.  But nobody sees the doubts that you hold onto, combined with your own self-doubt.  We become afraid of not living up to expectations, others as well as your own.  There are lots of things at stake that you are not sure whether you have the same amount of strength to counter.  What is clouding your mind at the moment?  If other people are pushing their own agendas onto you, have a think about whether you want to be what they want you to be,  Seek that assurance. 

My hopes and dreams are fading fast
I'm all burnt out, and I don't think my strength's gonna last
So I'm crying out to You
Lord I know You're the only one who is able to pull me through
So I need to talk to You and ask You for Your guidance
Especially today when my world seems so cloudy
Guide me until I'm sure I open up my heart 

It is really easy to feel burnt out.  Maybe you are experiencing this because you have constantly had to be the strong person that takes of everything for everyone else.  When you continually attract weak people who want to be fixed because they see your strength as something that hopefully rubs off on them, you cannot be responsible for continually building up others at the expense of your own self-confidence.  Those words of encouragement and gestures of kindness that you give away so freely, they come at a cost.  A personal cost to you that gees, of course, you need to cry it out sometimes.  When you find yourself surrounded by uncertainty, and you need to feel like you need to have some control of your situation, open up your heart and feel things for yourself again, nobody else.



So show me how to do things Your way
Don't let me make the same mistakes over and over again
Your will be done, and I'll be the one
To make sure that it's carried out
And in me, I don't want any doubt
That's why I need to talk to You and ask You for Your guidance
Especially today when my life seems a little cloudy
Guide me until I'm sure I open up my heart

We make ourselves weak and vulnerable when we think that is what we continue to make the same mistakes.  When we allow ourselves to be hurt and abused, we might think that this is our lot in life.  That this is what we are meant to be feeling right now.  But these times and these moments soon pass.  How can you find ways to erase any of those doubts?  Allow paths to be revealed to you.  Allow yourself opportunities to heal yourself and do things that make you smile, make you laugh and make you happy.  What do you need to talk about?  We might reach out to people or they might reach out to us.  We should never turn away people in need.  We should never ignore people we know who need us.  But there comes a point when you need to value yourself and your worth.

All I need to do is hear a single word from You
I open up my heart 
Just one word would make 
A difference in what I do Lord
I open my heart to You
You're the lover of my soul
Captain of my sea
I need a word from You
That's why I open up my heart

We are living in uncertain times, unprecedented times that may continue to fill us with more pain and confusion.  You need to know how to gauge for yourself how to have an improved quality of life.  We shouldn't be living a life that takes you away from joy.  A life that takes you away from what is important in life - creating a life with people you care about and love.  Until things change, whether you can create those changes or not, keep talking to Him and trust, have faith, and believe that good things and good people are coming your way.  How do I know this to be true?  Because in the darkest spaces and times of my life, I have only needed to talk to Him and know how much love I feel, how I can be in the world and make a difference with the gifts and talents I have been given.  I just open up my heart. . . 

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