I'd like to say we gave it a try
I'd like to blame it all on life
Maybe we just weren't right
But that's a lie, that's a lie
How do you know that you have given everything your all? You have done everything you could have possibly done in your relationship? Maybe you are in a relationship by yourself it seems, because you make all of the effort, you make all of the necessary ways to be connected, but you just don't feel it. We can go ahead and blame how busy life gets or we just don't feel a certain type of way about others as we thought. How do you know that you are with the right person? Sometimes history isn't enough to see you through anymore. How about some real loyalty and some just plain realness actually. We can only blame others for so long before you realise what part you had to play in that situation. Whatever doubts you are entertaining now, they wouldn't have sprung there for no reason. Can you trust yourself?
And we can deny it as much as we want
But in time our feelings will show
'Cause sooner or later
We'll wonder why we gave up
The truth is everyone knows
Do you even trust your feelings? I don't know if I can trust mine. I don't feel like I remember what it feels like to have one's feelings respected. It's been too long. And rather than relying on movies to remind me about what I am like in a relationship, the only way to solve the problem is to get yourself back on the proverbial horse. But what if I don't want to ride? What will your feelings show in time? I don't know if I have met anybody who has yet to make me feel safe enough to abandon a second thought about it all. I don't remember the last time I gave up. Ah, yes. It was halfhearted so I was a bit of a halfass about it. Respect yourself to know when to leave or walk away from situations that do not serve you or realise your worth.
Almost, almost is never enough
So close to being in love
If I would have known that you wanted me
The way I wanted you
Then maybe we wouldn't be in two worlds apart
But right here in each other's arms
Have you been in situations where people have revealed their feelings to you? How did you handle it? If you're anything like me, you just become a complete mess and don't know how you're supposed to deal with it all. Do you give in to temptation and go along with what is presented to you? Maybe what had once attracted you - is not all that it is cracked up to be. If you are not with the person you think you are meant to be with - you are either happy where you are, or you can't physically be with them. How much do we want to be able to lost it all of the pain before we shake ourselves back into the present? Sometimes it is safer being in worlds apart. You are just too much to be in the same space together. Everyone can see that. Everyone would most likely feel that.
But almost is never enough
You say all of the things that society teaches you to do when it comes to matters of the heart. You give in to all of the trappings of what relationships offer and you wonder if this is worth signing up for at all. Don't get me wrong. There are wonderful moments of what love is all about and what we should be doing to ensure that we get to experience that in our lifetime. Everyone deserves that. But sometimes fear can take over and you start to lose faith in even putting your own heart back out there again.
If I could change the world overnight
There'd be no such things as goodbye
You'll be standing right where you were
And we'd get the chance we deserve oh
I say quiet goodbyes in my head all the time and wonder if there could be any greater loss than what I've already experienced. How do you learn to trust your heart again and hope that it looks out for your best interests? You always give good advice to others when it comes to matters of the heart, but you never take the same extreme care with yourself do you? Why is it so much easier to be more aware of the welfare of others than your own? When you associated self care with being selfish - this is the part of the reason why you feel guilt when moments of joy creep in when you should be feeling a whole other type of way. This self flagellation has got to stop.
Try to deny it as much as you want
But in time our feelings will show
'Cause sooner or later
We'll wonder why we gave up
Truth is everyone knows
I hope that when you finally figure out what you want in life, how you want love to be in your world? Then maybe you will be able to figure out how best to be yourself. Everyone thinks they have you figured out, assume so much, but actually know relatively little. We all know we cannot control what others think of us or whatever gossip or rumours they have about you. Just know that when you start to know your worth and what you are willing to accept in your life as love - then you will most definitely feel that what you have been receiving isn't befitting of the love you give so generously to others. And as much as people profess and say all the words you want to hear, you know deep down that almost is never enough. . .