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Broken and beautiful. . .

I never held my hand out and asked for something free
I got pride I could roll out for miles in front of me
I don't need your help, and I don't need sympathy
I don't need you to lower the bar for me

Are you the type of person who never really asks for help? How do people know when you are broken? 2021 was a pretty rough year. You could be forgiven for mistaking 2020 as a traumatic year with the global pandemic that has never been out of the news cycle since it arrived but, here we are. I've been sitting on this blog post for a while (15 days to be exact) as I have been trying to navigate my way through some challenges. What does 2022 hold for you? More people trying to lower the bar for you?

I know I'm Superwoman, I know I'm strong
I know I've got this 'cause I've had it all along
I'm phenomenal and I'm enough
I don't need you to tell me who to be

Everyone is entitled to an opinion - on any topic, on anybody, on any given day. Have you forgotten who you are along the way? Who is responsible for making you feel less than you are? When people try to tell you how to be, who to be - what business is it of theirs? Sometimes we have to be strong out of necessity, not out of choice. Learn to recognise your own power and the strengths you bring to the world. When you go through positive changes that are a reflection of your commitment to your own journey, is it your fault that others feel less than? No. Self esteem means esteem of YOURself

Can someone just hold me?
Don't fix me, don't try to change a thing
Can someone just know me?
'Cause underneath, I'm broken and it's beautiful

Sometimes words are completely unnecessary. People forget how to listen and to read what you are trying to say without having to spell it out. But maybe that's exactly what's required. Why do people want to change or fix something about you when you're broken? Maybe you're meant to flounder for a bit so that you learn how to create your own resilience? It can be a mission to try to connect with others in order for them to learn to know you. As long as you are being authentic and genuine to who you are - what else is there to consider? 


I'm broken and it's beautiful
I'm broken and it's beautiful
I'm broken and it's beautiful
I'm broken and it's beautiful

Do people believe that you're broken? Most likely not. Unless they are really prepared to listen and wait for you ro respond thoughtfully to the perfunctory 'how are you' with 'good' - when clearly you are not - is completely fine. Learn to embrace what is broken within you. We are pushed towards a level of perfection and pressure that is not only out of character for you - but maybe even completely unnecessary. People tend to throw away objects that are broken. Do we do the same with people?

We're walking on the ocean, turning water into wine
We bury our emotion and pretend we're just fine
The only way to live now is to know you're gonna fly
Don't listen to the lying liars and their lies

Remember the miracles that are about to come your way. Not being able to see a light at the end of the tunnel you're hoping to see requires patience, and tolerance to put up with false starts, false alarms and false prophets. Fall apart whenever you can. This 'pretending everything is fine' has to stop. Only you can put an end to it, so when are you going to start flying? You know you can't really fly unless you are willing to fall. So what's it going to be?

I'm tired (oh)
Can I just be tired? (just be tired)
Without piling on all sad and scared and out of time (oh)
I'm wild (wild)
Can I just be wild (just be wild)
Without feeling like I'm falling and I'm losing my mind
  
If you need to let the sad and scared show up first, so be it. Own your emotions by calling it when you see it. Explain to people what your level of emotional intelligence is. Will we ever be able to master our feelings in such a way? We can never really run out of time trying to be the best of who we are if we are consistent with our efforts. It's the trying within trying times that sets you apart from those who would buckle at the first sign of danger. Embrace being wild and being unapologetic about it. There's nothing more pleasing to see than someone who exemplifies what it means to be both broken and beautiful. . . 
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