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Grace. . .

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I needed Your grace more
Than I thought I ever would
You forgave more
Than I thought You ever could
I was stronger in my head
But truth is
I need Your grace

It has been a horrendous week. I have come out of a whole tailspin that I needed to wash over me and stay still through it all. I did not want my past mistakes to be the current distraction from achieving the future planning that I was destined to help produce. But when do we know that we need God's grace? We turn to Him in times of struggle and hardship, but completely forget to praise Him through it all. We cannot have any hope of moving forward into the future unless we address mistakes of the past. We need to keep learning from them so that we don't repeat the same mistakes that could be avoided, to show the growth and development that we have been focusing on, not just for our own sanity, but to really sit in that stillness with God and let His grace shine through in all that you do to glorify Him.

I needed Your grace more
Than I thought I ever would
You forgave more 
Than I thought You ever could
I was stronger in my head
But truth is
I need Your grace

I have always prided myself in being someone who is mentally tough. Someone who can withstand so much pressure, and granted I have. Reflecting on the journey of the past five years. the bad choices and decisions that I made which eroded people's trust in me, it was a necessary part of my journey. Harming people and hurting them was not the original intent, but it became something that happened as a result of my decision-making. How much will you rely on being stronger in your head when you don't really need to be? So many times I felt like I had lost control and I probably did. But I never gave up hope. I knew that my truth would be something that nobody could take away from me, no matter how bleak and destitute the situation seemed to be.


I need Your grace (grace)
I need Your grace (grace)
I need Your grace (mmm)
Couldn't make it without Your grace
I'd be lost without Your grace

The thing about being lost, you need to know if you want to be found.
I felt like I had lost my way, got so caught up in things I thought were important, but they weren't. I felt as if I needed to take on responsibility for things that needed to be a shared responsibility for all. God's grace has taught me to focus on what I can do next, rather than on what I did. If we continue to focus on our mistakes and don't make amends, don't make the effort to make things right, how will we be able to show God's grace in all the work that we do? If God shows me undeserved favour, then why can't I act with grace towards others, why can't others act with grace towards me?

Oh I need Your grace 
Oh thank God for Your grace (Grace)
I really need Your grace (grace, grace)
Yeah I need Your grace

Craving God's grace has been a constant goal during this challenging professional time in my life. and what I learned most of all, through it all, is that my faith in God has increased, my commitment to dedicating the rest of my life to serving His purpose using all of the gifts and talents that He has given me, is only fitting enough reward to thank God for His loving grace. I don't think there would be anybody on earth with such unconditional love. I pray that whatever challenges you face in your own life, remember to continue to thank God for His grace, even if you can't see the blessings right now, God never forsakes His warriors and those who do good in His name. 

I needed Your grace
More than I thought I ever would

When you are the subject of gossip, you never pay attention to the small minds of people who would rather backstab you. One of the key phrases I discovered last week was that I would welcome a front jab over a backstab any day. Keyboard warriors with opinions cannot harm you. Their careless thoughts do not take into account the desperation you felt and the perceived lack of options. The judgment from society is only as harsh as what you will allow it to do. The shame and guilt of the world will not stay in the light. Continue to do good work, continue to use your gifts and talents to help others prosper, to help others realise what they need to do. All of these things we need to do to remind us how awesome life is when we have God's grace. . . 

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