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Smash into you. . . .

Head down as I watch my feet take turns hitting the ground
Eyes shut, I find myself in love racing the earth 
And I'm soaked in your love aah
And love was right in my path, in my grasp
And me and you belong

Do you know whose love you want to be soaked in?  You might not know where you stand in certain situations and you wonder, what is the point?  There will come a time when you realise you've been talking in circles, you spend far too much time thinking you're being there, you're doing all the right things, but it will all be in vain.  How long do you think it takes before someone is able to tell you whether they are capable of expressing healthy outputs of love?  I don't know how close you were to have it in your path or in your grasp if you're having trouble trying to recognise it.  And besides, do we ever really belong with people?  You shouldn't let someone try to take control of how your heart should love.  Just because they're the loudest person in the room, it doesn't mean we need to do what we hear.  Instead of finding yourself in love racing the earth, you might be trying to escape it or outrun it.

I wanna run 
And smash into you
I wanna run
And smash into you

How many times have you wanted to smash into someone?  I can think of a few people I just want to smash lol but that's counterproductive.  But I do know, that no amount of talking would do any good.  That's only because they think they know you better than you know yourself.  Why would you let people watch you more closely than you watch yourself?  But I guess you have to figure out the grounds for smashing into someone.  They might tell you that they need to be able to test your reactions to things so that you can help each other out.  But in the process of doing so, they reveal new information that they were struggling to tell you and sometimes with new knowledge, and trying to process it all, all you can do is run, but in the opposite direction, and away from any productive smashing, if there is such a thing.




Ears closed (closed) what I hear no one else has to know
'Cause I know what we have is worth first place and gold
And I'm soaked in your love aah
And love was right in my path, in my grasp
And me and you belong

I would only know that what we have is worth first place because you keep saying it is.  You keep saying that this has never happened before and you want to check that it is the same for me too.  You can't drop a bombshell and expect an instant reaction.  When someone tells you that they are not ashamed of you, that they want to be able to show you exactly who you are so that you are capable of loving someone who will treat you better - why tell you all of these things if they have no intention of seeing the damage they cause more than the good?  Why stay around and wait for the destruction and see it all fall around your ears?  If they have spent the entire time getting to know you so that they could point out all of your flaws, why continue to show up and be pointed out in that way?  Why give people permission to persecute you like that?  They might say you're so important in their lives, how they wouldn't be able to do things without you.  But what about the times when you need yourself, for yourself?  Who do you belong to then?  How much longer will you dishonour your own feelings?

I wanna run 
And smash into you
I wanna run
And smash into you

I hope that you choose to run.  We should never be in a state where we cannot trust ourselves because we have people who constantly make you a shell of your former self.  You may find it hard to trust people ever again.  You might find it hard to even function as you try to refine and shape a pathway to the destiny, divine calling or mission that you have been procrastinating about.  In trying to understand yourself better and how you react in the world, there will most likely be fewer opportunities engaging in the world, but more self-development as you try to navigate your own oceans rather than try to join other people's quests.  There are plenty enough days to join them, but only when you have been able to address what your own priorities are for a change.  These are the things that should be worth first place and gold.  I'll be running alright.  I just needed a reminder, a note to self, to run in the right direction.  I guess I'm just holding back again until I feel like I want to smash into you. . . 

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