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Try love. . .

This is your day love
This is the day that you can't get away
I been waiting all day love 
Waiting for your embrace love
This is the day, love
Every prayer that I prayed feelings I can't escape
It's so hard to explain love
Still it's a beautiful day love
It's a beautiful day

Have you been waiting for love? I sometimes feel love can be extremely elusive, but then other times I feel that love comes our way and we are scared to engage in it. What stops us from accepting love? Whose embrace are you waiting for? I have recently been able to arrive at this love destination. I have to say, it isn't the easiest journey, but having someone who is keen to be on that journey with you is amazing. I have been a widow for 10 \years and trying to navigate that lonely void, that space without a companion has been difficult to say the least. 

See I admit I didn't know much
Much about love, the way it was supposed to be 
I was born into a world so cold
How could I forget
The many dark days
The times I felt betrayed, by the ones that were supposed to love me
It's the only kind of love I've known

What have your experiences with love been like? Sometimes we think we know all about love and then the rug gets pulled out from under us. The times when you might have felt betrayed by loved ones could be because you were changing and evolving at such a rapid rate that they couldn't keep up? Abandonment, neglect and feeling unloved may be what you have experienced with family members and previous relationships. We are never truly defined by our past, we shouldn't let it. What we can do is allow our past to serve as a reminder, particularly the things you weren't proud about your actions or the situation, but knowing that you can understand the kind of love you deserve is the first step.

That's the reason why a love that's born to die is so hard to believe
So maybe I'll take a chance and try love
Don't say goodbye love

What do you make of a love that was born to die? We ost faith when we lack the patience to fully believe in what we can't see. We cannot afford to rely on the status quo - you have to change it, Will you be willing to try love? Surround yourself with people who are bent on making sure that your happiness comes first. It will always be hard to believe in love when you are in the thick of envy and jealousy. After being a widow for 10 years, I have decided to embark on a new relationship and it is completely different from any other love I have known. I wasn't looking for love but it found me.


This is your day love
This is the day that you can't get away
I been waiting all day love 
Waiting for your embrace love
This is the day, love
Every prayer that I prayed feelings I can't escape
It's so hard to explain love
Still it's a beautiful day love
It's a beautiful day

It can be a daunting experience to try love again. One of the final things my late husband said to me was if I found someone who loved me, to marry him. I just remember sobbing by his bedside as the life was slowly fading from his eyes. When he finally passed away, I buried myself in my work and other commitments as I could not imagine a life without him, I had to relearn what is was to be single agian, to try and pick up the pieces of my own identity again. I couldn't recognise who I was anymore as I had to relinquish all elements of our life together and forge ahead into the great unknown without him. How would you explain love? All of the merits of it? All of its challenges? How kind do you think love will be to you? 

See I admit today's kinda love ain't the same kinda love
This one leaves you feeling empty
I don't wanna be let down again

How do you avoid feeling empty again? What do you think you need to fill yourself up again? Love in this day and age is pretty scary to navigate. The expectations of dating and getting to know someone can come from society - but what lives within you? How do you feel about it? What kind of love are we we seeking? How do we avoid disappointment? I guess you can't avoid any of the dangers of love. You just need to feel the fear and do it anyway. Engage in opportunities to socialise and meet new people. There is now reason for you to be let down again if you disclose everything about your past that has made you the person you are today. 

Been around the world and I know it's going crazy
I cried so many nights and I need someone to save me
No greater love or sacrifice
Love on the cross you paid the price
That's why I trust you with my life and I take the chance and try love
Don't say goodbye love

What I have come to cherish about exploring this new love in the new relationship is being able to trust again. Being able to trust someone is super important - trusting that they will not betray you, trusting that they truly love you and stand by you. Are you hoping for someone to save you with their love? Remembering the love of Jesus Christ was a key component in me being able to move forward. Being able to connect his sacrifice for me by being able to put my own heart on the line with my new partner is something I treasure.

If I didn't get it right yesterday
You've given me a chance to try love again
And even though life didn't start out easy
That's not the way it has to end
See I learned love's not the enemy
But I had to look deep down within
For God so loved the world
Now let's let real love begin

God knows how hard I have tried to avoid falling in love. When opportunities came after the passing of my late husband, I was too thick to discern what was genuine and what was artificial. I had to hurt myself a few more times in order to know that I deserved better, that I deserved to be loved. I have finally found someone who found me and fell in love with me - as I am. I found this bizarre at first, not because I was skeptical and didn't believe him, but I wondered, how could he possibly love me when I don't love myself?

My love never disappears
My love
Like always everyday, feel this love

When I felt that I ready to love again, and truly commit to my partner, it took him to be involved in a car accident on the motorway for me to realise how I could not live without him. Being able to spend time with someone who is invested in your health, wellbeing and happiness is a complete first for me, Not having to worry about people who only want to love you for things that you can give them, for personal gain will no longer be a priority. 

Get out and touch somebody
Love somebody
Hold somebody
Get out and touch somebody
Love somebody
Hold somebody
Don't you know that you just may be
The only Jesus that you see

The most certain thing I know is that I will eventually marry this man,
He has been consistently reaching out to me, He has touched me with his love in so many ways, sharing about his life, trials and tribulations in such an easy going way. I truly believe that he is God's answer to my prayers. I asked God to keep my heart locked with him until He saw someone fit to lead me into love again, I know that Jesus lives because He has promised to always carry me. I see Jesus in the eyes of the new partner I have. This is because Jesus encourages us, through every situation, to always try love. . . 

I love you Fatu Fatu


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