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Never enough. . .

I'm not sure whether it's because it's coming to the end of the year and you start to panic about all of the things that you need to finish or need to address.  Have you reached or completed all of the goals that you set for yourself?  There might have been other things that popped up that you never saw coming.  Have they been blessings in disguise or a hindrance or distraction from you completing your goals?  You probably don't spend enough time listening to yourself and getting to know what really pushes your buttons.  We never really give ourselves enough of a chance to really learn what really stretches us to our limits.  We never really know how much we have left in the tank until we think we have nothing left.  Do you know yourself well enough to know what you are capable of achieving?

I'm trying to hold my breath 
Let it stay this way
Can't let this moment end
You set off a dream in me
Getting louder now
Can you hear it echoing?
Take my hand will you share this with me?
'Cause darling without you

When do you allow someone to breathe life into a dream that you have let lie dormant for so long?  It can be instantly all consuming when someone tells you everything you need to hear in order to motivate you, keep you persistent and hungry, working hard to push you to your greatness.  We can be afraid to realise our dreams because we are often ridiculed for being dreamers or we get torn apart by people who have never realised their own dreams.  How many moments have you had in your life that took your breath away?  I can count on one hand the breathless moments that have left me suspended in time.  I think about how I couldn't simply contain myself in those pockets of time.  It was always more memorable though to be able to share them with someone who understood the gravity and enormity of those moments, coupled with the brevity.

All the shine of a thousand spotlights
All of the stars that we steal from the night sky
Will never be enough
Never be enough
Towers of gold are still too little
These hands could hold the world but it'll
Never be enough
Never be enough

How bright does it need it to be before you realise that your dream is worth pursuing?  When you have something so clear in your mind, it's hard to explain how its sheer brilliance blinds you, so it's no wonder that you don't know how anyone else is supposed to take it too.  You just need to figure out how to surround yourself with supportive people who are able to help you on your way.  They don't even need to do very much either, just believe in the power of your dream and how much it will benefit everyone else that comes into contact with you.  We would only need to steal the stars from the night sky so we could help to illuminate it for others who need to see it too.  Who do you want to see your dream? 


For me
Never, never
Never, never
Never for me
For me
Never enough
Never enough
Never enough
For me
For me
For me

The focus has to be on yourself and what you want to be able to do.  That level of insatiable hunger to work hard and be on a pathway to a destination that you know is imminent but don't quite know - wouldn't that be enough to spur you on?  The brilliance of knowing that you will make it, even if you don't know exactly where it will be or when - but just that you would know it once you got there?  There will be very moments in life where you would be able to feel that.  I have known that feeling only a few times in my life and I have relished that feeling, yet have totally appreciated it once I know that it becomes one of those moments.  I think we don't allow ourselves the opportunity to recognise these moments for the great chances that they could be.  Instead we block ourselves from experiencing them because we don't know enough people who live in this way, who celebrate life in this way, who trust in living in blind faith in this way.  Isn't it time that you at least attempt to, at least try?

All the shine of a thousand spotlights
All of the stars that we steal from the night sky
Will never be enough
Never be enough
Towers of gold are still too little
These hands could hold the world but it'll
Never be enough
Never be enough

I have a few friends who have tried to reach for their own personal dreams and stars, to try to come into their own spotlights but never seem to quite hit the mark.  I have truly appreciated their tenacity and willingness to at least attempt to and try.  If you are not surrounding yourself with people who not only support but encourage you to live out of your comfort zone - then you should seriously think about having a new set of friends, it's time for a new squad.  I have so much respect for strong Pacific women who know their own worth, who strive hard to make inroads into markets and places where we are never seen, where we are always discounted or seen as less than.  I would like to think that one day soon, why not even today if we are of the mind (to be honest), when we will be able to completely eradicate our egos from the equation and just genuinely wish the best for someone else and just celebrate everyone's strengths and uniqueness.  I think the older I get, I am genuinely learning to love and acknowledge, to help promote and activate my fellow sisters to be all they can be.  But that goes for my Pacific brothers too, who are scared to live in their own spotlights and be their own stars in the night sky.

For me
Never, never
Never, never
Never for me
For me
Never enough
Never enough
Never enough
For me
For me
For me

I hope that you seriously consider how you can be of worth and value to someone else who is in need.  I hope that when your friends and loved ones are going through trauma or dramatic situations, that you can be of some assistance, even if you cannot solve their problems - but at least you let them know that you empathise with their plight, even if you cannot be the one to help them hold it altogether.  We just need to remind ourselves and each other, who we are, and what we have told each other what we want to achieve.  It can be a catch 22 when you share too openly or too widely about your dreams because you might spend too much time talking about them, rather than just quietly achieving them.  It's a fine balance to try and maintain that.  I just think that we shouldn't relinquish our group on our standards and what we want to excel in.  We should always be lead by what's in our hearts and what motivates us to be better than what we think we are.  These are the things that should help to sustain us.  Knowing and feeling this about myself are some of the things that help me to know that I will never settle for less, never self-sabotage and be convicted in the knowledge no matter how many times I feel like giving up, that the prize alone should show it's never enough for me. . . 

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