Share my life. . .

If it makes any difference
I still love you girl
You're my weakness
You changed my world

How do you know you have changed someone's world?  Do they tell you? Do they show you? A combination of both?  It can sometimes be hard to navigate new waters of relationships if you are unsure about how things are supposed to turn out.  Well, that's part of the problem anyway; the fact that you try to make things fit, when it isn't meant to be that way at all.  You're just supposed to just enjoy each other. Well at least that's what I think. There is no way to know for sure unless you're told. unless they show you just how much they care. Maybe they just don't want you to know how much of a weakness you are in their life. So it's best just to leave well enough alone, because the time will come.

Share my life
Trust in me
You're all I want
Everything I need (ooh baby)

How can you hope to trust someone if you can't even trust yourself? What does sharing someone's life really mean?  It's a scale thing isn't it? When someone says they want to share their life it should mean that they want to share every single thing about their life that means the world to them, because you are their world too - I mean, they've told you that you're the only thing they want, that you're all they want. I guess it's up to you to figure out whether you trust yourself to be part of that world and be willing to share the highs and lows, to have a chance at happiness again. Are you ready to go through all of that again? Will they be able to stack up to your expectations? How can they believe so strongly in you when you are still just trying to enjoy what life is on a daily basis with yourself?

Makes any difference
I give you all my heart 
Girl my sun sets
Anywhere you are

The thing about being a widow is that people try to tell you how you should approach relationships. People mean well, they all have good intentions. But they don't know how you deal with your heart, as you carefully try to handle it yourself before letting someone try to hold it and care for it - even with their best intentions. What do you do when someone gives you all their heart? Did you ask for it? Why do they think that they need to give it to you? I guess you're just used to what society tells you how relationships should be and how you should be loved. That's all good and fine, but you need to trust yourself first to know whether your heart can withstand the damage it could incur from someone saying all the right things, such smooth lines that you have heard mildly before, but you've been around the block enough times to know whether it is genuine or not. Will you let him see your sun set where you are?

Maybe I'm a dreamer
You're still my queen
Your love's like a river girl

It's runnin' right through me

You would like to think that someone is able to feel your love if you give it so freely. If you show them through words, thoughts, points of contact, showing up, being there when you aren't asked to be. I would like to think that you would be able to show your love flowing through those that need it the most from you. How do you make sure that the love flows like a river for yourself, within your own soul? I guess this might be why people want to be so loved by you - whether you would like to admit it or not. You can try to rationalise why people want your love. But you don't need to know the reasons. You just need to be prepared to offer up an answer - whether you choose to reciprocate that love or not.

Share my life (share my life) hey girl
You can trust in me (trust in me girl) baby
You're all I want (you're all I want) hey girl
Everything you need, hey babe

I haven't seen very many examples of equity and equality in what it means to share a life with someone. The examples I've seen have only revealed a dominant partner and a subdued partner. It took me a while to figure out whether there was equal sharing in their lives because I had to be sure that the one who seemed like the subdued partner, was actually accepting of that role or whether there was something deeper to figure out. I have found that the seemingly weaker partners enjoyed a laid-back approach to relationships and relied on the more bossy or dominant partner to make all the decisions and have the fair idea about the direction of the relationship. Despite all of the things and people that may threaten to tear relationships apart, I guess the two individuals will just figure out that their shared love is all that matters. Can you really on someone who promises to give you everything you need? I guess it depends on your level of resilience and whether you're prepared to accept broken promises and not being given what you need. This is the time where we just start to give ourselves what we need first, rather than relying on others to supply it.

You're my dream and my joy
My heart belongs to you girl
So I sat down one day and I wrote this song
Cause I need you, in my world

I hope that you accept being someone's dream and joy. It's a hard thing to figure out when opportunities present themselves and you don't know what you're supposed to do. You spend time trying to understand yourself and reassessing the priorities in your life.  You need to ask yourself some really sobering questions like - are you ok with who you are right now? Do you need to be with someone in order to be happy? Do you need to be needed? I guess until you learn what you can do for someone else in a relationship - you can cross that bridge when you come to it. These might be all the things you need to hear in order to feel more secure about who you are. As reassuring as these words are, you can't share your life with anyone unless you're ready. When the time is right, I will take that leap of faith, and I will finally share my life. . .