It's been a long time that I've been feeling feelings
But the tricky kind that I just can't shake
It's no good chasing down the meanings
When every sign points a different way
Trying to make sense of feelings and being aware of your emotional intelligence can be tricky. What feelings are you finding hard to shake right now? We can too often rush to try and make sense of things, fix things or try to help when we don't need to - instead we should be sitting back and listening to what people require from us, and negotiate what we are willing to share. Where are all of the different meanings taking you? Are you prepared for the different ways in which you find yourself moving? Trust yourself to know how you will be - those different permutations are a testament to the growth you are doing that may seem completely foreign or alien to others.
Just a little bit faster
Just a little more slow
You already passed it
Just a little ways to go
Now with a little more feeling
And a little less flair
But it'll work out, I swear
The rate of change that we are expected to acclimatise continues to increase at such an alarming rate that we lose sight of precision and quickly get sucked into a vortex we can't figure out. How do you pace yourself? In this rat race we call life, what are you actively doing to improve your situation? What are you doing to make sure that you are including self care in the mix? We need to continue to take in what is meant for us, and learn to discern what is not. Continue to have the faith to sustain you during this difficult season. Never forget to celebrate the little wins, the successes and personal bests that only you know you've achieved.
Cause the Lord ain't let me down lately
Good Lord, knows it's true
Cause the Lord ain't let me down lately
And I don't ever expect him to
Do you feel let down by others? When we are dependent on others or look to others when we should be looking within - that tells us a lot about what we need to work on - comes directly from within ourselves. Why do we rely on others anyway? Is it because we can't do things without them? There is a difference between dependency and co-dependency - and then there's the other realm of trying to sort things out for yourself by committing to the work that needs to take place. Being able to cast aside worldly opinions of you is only as hard as you let it be.
My heart is a fickle congregation
Always judging what the choir sings
Head and heart are a tricky combination
When both are fighting over everything
The biggest struggles in my life have always centred on listening to my head or my heart. Do you allow yourself to be guided by one or the other? Some people choose to factor risk and other considerations, other variables that need to be taken into account when we are trying to tame our own hearts. Is your heart fickle? You can never trust it. Once you think you have landed on your feet, the rug gets pulled out again from under your feet. How will you let your head work with your heart? They need to both learn that neither rules the domain but that both need to work together closely in tandem to make life bearable for the body who has to house said head and heart.
Just a little bit faster
Just a little more slow
You already passed it
Just a little ways to go
Now with a little less feeling
And a little more flair
But it'll work out, I swear
What do you need to speed up a little bit faster? What do you need to slow down a little bit? What is it that you need to pass? Being able to know exactly what tool you need in your arsenal of weapons to approach all of life's situations may be overwhelming. We are never meant to know exactly how to proceed with things. We are meant to learn and absorb as much as we can. There will be some days where you won't want to learn, you will want to withdraw and give up. But we must never let our feelings get the better of us. Sometimes when we rely on them so much, we lose sight of figuring out how to engage in our emotions in a healthy way that works for us.
Cause the Lord ain't let me down lately
Good Lord, don't I know it's true
Cause the Lord ain't let me down lately
And I don't ever expect him to
I hope that you learn to hold yourself up. In time we should be able to find our intrinsic motivators that allow us to find direction and momentum in life. Sometimes we may be headed somewhere but the pace is sporadic. Sometimes we may moving at pace but in constantly different directions, trying out new places to be pointed to when we feel like we are losing the point (or the plot!). Just remember that when man fails you, when you fail yourself, that we need to pick ourselves up and keep moving. Learning not to blame others for your own mistakes or frustrations is a daily work in progress - because it is always easy to blame someone else. Instead, take the time to recognise your faults and what you need to improve. Be kind to yourself and to others. And if you continue to get disappointed, brush it off and don't feel let down. It's a question of where you place your faith. The Lord ain't let me down lately. . .