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Out here on my own. . .

Sometimes I wonder where I've been
Who I am
Do I fit in
Make believin' is hard alone
Out here on my own

When you find it hard to figure out who you are and where you fit in, the likely cause is that you probably don't know who you are because you're busy being all things to all people, and then this is further compounded by you not knowing how to fit in.  Where have you been in your own life?  Consider how much you have grown over the past five years.  Depending on how old you are, how you measure this growth is something that connects solely to you.  We get seduced by this idea of success and what society says it looks like.  Why should we believe any of it?  Why should those markers be what sets our standards?  Maybe being alone is exactly what you need to do to gain clarity.

We're always provin' who we are
Always reachin' for that risin' star
To guide me far
And shine me home
Out here on my own

The more you succeed, you can often find yourself having to be more away from home than ever before.  You outgrow people, you outgrow places.  When this happens people try to be negative about you, they try to bring you down in the hopes that you never reach that risin' start that is actually, only meant for you - and nobody else.  Do people not understand that they all have their own star that they need to grow to reach? We must rise with our stars and move beyond invisible barriers that we think are fixed and limit us.  Who do you need to prove yourself to now?  Who is there left to impress?  What more do they want from you?



While I'm down and feelin' blue
I close my eyes so I can be with you
Oh baby be strong for me
Baby belong to me
Help me through
Help me need you

I don't know how you can deal with people who are in constant need.  Does anybody even know the trials you've had to face?  Can you remember a time and place where once you closed your eyes, you would be transported back to there with who you wanted to be with the most.  Sometimes you can't be strong for other people, theirs is not your fight to take up.  Sometimes they can't be strong for you either, yours is not their fight to take up. But when we know that we need to push people away, all we can do just succumb to that fateful thought, surrender to it and trust in the power of a decision that brings with it an action that would otherwise have been undone.

Until the morning sun appears
Making light 
Of all my fears
I dry the tears
I've never shown
Out here on my own

A lot of friends and family are suffering in silence with their own problems and issues that the world judges them for.  How many more times will you allow yourself to be subjected to abuse? It's no mistake when people say to move up and away from the table when love is no longer being served.  When people say that they are supportive and want to be there for you, but then turn around and use your confidences as weapons to hurt you with - all over again - why let people make light of your fears?  We learn to harden our hearts again.  We learn to never be taken for fools again.  Closing yourself off from the world may work.  But you just need to remember, I can tell you, there's nothing wrong with being out here on my own. . . 

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