And I hope that time doesn't pass us by. . .
Do you take the opportunities that come your way?
There are always things that happen across your path when you least expect. Life plants people in your path who show you new and interesting experiences that you never really consider. There might be hidden talents that you have had buried within you for so long, things that you did once upon a time, or did during times when pressures didn't seem to rule your every waking moment. Those times when time was not an issue and how you chose to do things planned out just right, or worked itself out purely by accident. Do you have friends who are like that? You make copious plans and things never quite stick? But the last minute plans always win out every. single. time.
It took a lot to introduce myself
I had to put my heart up on the shelf
I didn't know that it could be so hard
When you come across new people and you are having conversations, you have to check yourself.
What is this conversation about? Who is trying to learn what exactly here? What questions do you really want to know the answers to? Can you recall the times when you found introductions really hard to do? There is always that pressure that you put on yourself to not come across as some fool who can't string a logical sentence, especially when it comes to people that you might be attracted to. When you are in the moment, you can never really analyse what's going on, because otherwise you're having a conversation with yourself internally and completely missing the point of the all-important-yet-external conversation.
That night I got home, I was all alone
And left to wonder about the great unknown
Oh, was it love or was I fooling myself
Sometimes when you are home, you will be all alone.
Depending on how you feel when you are alone, it can be exactly what you need and don't want, or it can be what you want but don't necessarily need. Sometimes we don't know what we need until long after we understand ourselves a little better. Sometimes being alone helps us to figure this out. There is something about the solitude and the quiet that lets you hear your own thoughts and helps you to figure out how to translate those thoughts into actions for yourself. What do you wonder about the great unknown? Are there questions that you have that you would like answered? You might be wondering what your next big move is going to be, especially if you feel that you're in a plateau or some space that you feel there is no movement. Are you thinking, am I fooling myself?
And I hope that time doesn't pass us by
Or am I fooling myself
Fooling myself
Fooling myself
If you are letting time pass you by, it's either by your own design or beyond your control.
If you are letting opportunities and chances pass by with the time, and that is what you want to do, then that's fine. Sometimes life is like a carousel that you can get off to give you time to figure out what ride you want to go on next. You just have to be careful that you don't end up in other people's theme parks trying to solve their issues, that you neglect paying attention to your own life and what needs tending. If you are fooling yourself, is it because you don't have the foresight to see what's coming, or is it more that you always knew there was a shelf life and you were fooling yourself into believing that things could be more than they were ever prepared to be? Are you thinking, am I fooling myself?
So I tried not to give in to the silly games but I'm stuck to you
And I hope that your words are true
Here I am, I'm waiting full of fear
Cus' I know that love comes and disappears
Silly games. You can be forgiven for playing them, but you have to remember, sometimes you are never really taught the rules of those silly games. You only play them as you go along. By losing, you learn the rules of the silly games faster, and if you are a competitive individual and pride is one of your huge downfalls (literally and figuratively) then you just can't help but keep playing those silly games until you've bested your opponent/adversary/potential love interest. And even when you've win, do you really win? We rely on words to help us get through what we need to get through. You will start to think whether words are enough anymore because they don't match the actions that come with them. You should no longer be fearing anything during the wait. Love comes and goes. That's the natural flow of things. Are you thinking, am I fooling myself?
And I hope that time doesn't pass us by
Or am I fooling myself
Fooling myself
Fooling myself
I hope that no matter how you are choosing to pass the time, that you are doing it with the best of thoughts in your mind. I hope that you understand deep within yourself that loving and losing is perhaps the best lesson in love, even if it is painful. Alfred Lord Tennyson was no joke when he said 'tis better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all' in his poem about his dear friend. Whether lovers start off as friends, or friends become lovers, losing them is never easy. Some breaks may be easier than others. Seeing who you were during that time when that connection was live - did you like who you were when you looked in the mirror? Only you will be able to stop asking yourself then, am I fooling myself? There is welcome relief at times when you are able to sever or disconnect. It is only during those times that you don't mind at all whether time passes you by. That's probably the only time I know I'm not fooling myself. . .