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Head down as I watch my feet take turns hitting the ground Eyes shut, I find myself in love racing the earth  And I'm soaked in your love aah And love was right in my path, in my grasp And me and you belong Do you know whose love you want to be soaked in?  You might not know where you stand in certain situations and you wonder, what is the point?  There will come a time when you realise you've been talking in circles, you spend far too much time thinking you're being there, you're doing all the right things, but it will all be in vain.  How long do you think it takes before someone is able to tell you whether they are capable of expressing healthy outputs of love?  I don't know how close you were to have it in your path or in your grasp if you're having trouble trying to recognise it.  And besides, do we ever really belong with people?  You shouldn't let someone try to take control of how your heart should love.  Just because they're the lou...

I'd tell myself you don't mean a thing But what we got, got no hold on me? But when you're not there I crumble I tell myself that I don't care that much  But I feel like I'm dying till I feel your touch The thing with love is that it sneaks up on you when you least expect it.  Love can be a slow burn or fast combustion (self-inflicted or otherwise!).  Have you ever experienced a love that tries to tell you that it isn't, so much denial from the source, from your own mind, but there is a depth to a relationship that you don't know how to deal with - so you're stuck in some kind of limbo until you realise what your next appropriate move should be?  When can you tell yourself that you have stopped caring, or noticed that they have stopped caring about you?  The thing is, pride gets in the way, ego comes out to play, so you never really know what feelings truly are in place.  I mean, do you even really want to know that love isn't there?  Are you r...

Song blogpost requested by Tee Cee Toomata :-) I've been staring at the sky tonight Marveling and passing time Wondering what to do with daylight Until I can make you mine You are the one I want, you are the one I want I haven't had much of a chance to stare up at the sky lately.  But tonight I did catch the shepherd's delight with the beautiful clouds and its coconut marshmallow icecream hues.  At the worst of times, I feel like I am passing time, waiting for the next stage of my life to begin.  My daylight hours are filled with the demands of daily life that are not my own, but those of others.  The life of service is a tough one, especially when you do these things alone with little time for your own wellbeing, to nurture yourself and ensure that you can connect with people who care about you too.  People who take time out of their own day to touch base and ask how you are.  Who is the one you want? I've been thinking of changing my mind It ne...

You're as right as rain Mellow as a shower on a summer's day You're as right as rain Softer than a flower, sweet as marmalade You're made that way Why do people insist on seeing your softness when you're trying to be tough? I guess people see it as some kind of challenge where they want to pull you apart so that they can see what makes you tick.  You might have lost count the number of times that people have put you through the wringer hoping to bring you to your knees and try to break you.  There is something tender and beautiful about being able to be mellow, be refreshing in some sense, where you are a welcome addition to anybody's any given day.  Has anybody seen you made that way? Who has been lucky enough to get close to you?  You should never allow your vulnerability to shine through unless you're deliberately trying to build your resilience or your intentions are to put others before yourself. Every man has a secret dream Quiet thoughts tra...

Sometimes I wonder where I've been Who I am Do I fit in Make believin' is hard alone Out here on my own When you find it hard to figure out who you are and where you fit in, the likely cause is that you probably don't know who you are because you're busy being all things to all people, and then this is further compounded by you not knowing how to fit in.  Where have you been in your own life?  Consider how much you have grown over the past five years.  Depending on how old you are, how you measure this growth is something that connects solely to you.  We get seduced by this idea of success and what society says it looks like.  Why should we believe any of it?  Why should those markers be what sets our standards?  Maybe being alone is exactly what you need to do to gain clarity. We're always provin' who we are Always reachin' for that risin' star To guide me far And shine me home Out here on my own The more you succeed, you can often find y...

As I lay me down  Heaven hear me now I'm lost without a cause After giving it my all It can be easy to feel like there is no way out of a situation that you find yourself in.  You can put so much of yourself into something, give it your all, and then doubt whether you have really made an impression at all. You start to question whether you have made an impact.  We may think that our prayers are never heard, never answered, never touch who we want them to.  It is important to embrace these feelings and master these types of emotions, especially the negative ones that threaten to steal your joy.  We should never feel like we are lost without a cause - because this means we are not honouring our purpose or divine mission that we were all uniquely born to fulfill. Winter storms have come And darkened my sun After all that I've been through Who on earth can I turn to  It may start to feel like life just doesn't want to cut you a break. It can be real...

Some of them  Wanna break you down Steal your crown Use and abuse you It's been a while since my last blog post and that's because life can get on top of you when you're not looking.  The last time I wrote a blog post, I wasn't about to finish up at my current job and preparing to move on to the next new challenge.  I wasn't intending to leave but sometimes life throws you opportunities that you can't pass up.  You need to know when it is time to move on because your patience will run out or you do.  How have you been dealing when people try to break you down?  You can only stand enough abuse before you realise that you no longer need to sit at that table anymore. Some of them  Smile in your face 'Cause they heard it someplace You got more than they're used to How many smiling assassins do you know?  Would you rather someone was nasty to your face or behind your back?  The more you are willing to be real with yourself and confront...

Sau loa oe, e nofo mai i o'u tafatafa You come now, to sit beside me O le amataga, o si ta mafutaga The beginning, of our relationship O le lumanai o lo'o saunia mai The future that is being prepared  Mo tatou uma e vaai For all of us to see Ou te lē iloa po'o ā ni ou lagona pe a e faalogo i le pese lenei.  Sa faamanatu mai e seisi uo sa ma ola tuputupu a'e faatasi i totonu o le Ekalesia lenei pese.  O se pese sa iloa lelei lava e ia ma sa ou faapea e ese le mālie o le fati o le pese ae o upu fo'i ia, e faamatala mai ai ni mafaufauga o si alii pese ma nisi fo'i o ana ia uso ma le latou va.  E mafai ona e manatua le amataga o si mafutaga ma ou uso?  A ou mafaufau i lo'u to'alua sa oti i le tausaga 2013, ua valavala nei ma ona uso, vaganā lona uso matua sa tau mulimuli atu ia te ia i tausaga e lua i le maliu foi ma le oti.  E lē iloa lava e tatou po o ā foi se lumana'i o lo'o saunia mo i tatou.  Afai e te le o mautinoa po o ā ni fuafuaga o lo...

Be yourself, be yourself You were gonna call her back  And I ain't gonna hold you back  And there ain't nothing wrong with that Thought you'd wait I'd give you back Have you ever given someone licence to be themselves?  They might be spending far too much time trying to be someone else or trying to impress you with being someone else.  I don't understand why people do that.  To me, it's always been pretty easy to spot someone who isn't being their authentic self.  How can you tell?  It's not like that teacher from,  I can't recall which Harry Potter movie/book now, you know the one, he drinks a potion to stay in his fake human form while he's working at Hogwarts (apologies to all Harry Potter fans for that ridiculously vague description).  But what if you've been so busy being someone else, you don't even remember how to be yourself anymore? Lately something's been on your mind Man's up (?), still suck, lovestruck what'...

Po o a fea ea e toe sau ai - When are you going to return O lo'u Ali'i Iesu - My Lord Jesus Afio mai mo a'u nei - Come for me here Ta fia vaai atu - I want to see you A ou mafaufau i le toe afio mai o le Mesia, ou te lē iloa pe ou te ola pea.  Aisea e faapenā so'u manatu?  E lē lava so'u faatuatua ile Atua?  Leai.  Pau lava, o le tele o tagata, o lo'o iai ni manatu 'ese'ese ma talitonuga e faailoa mai ai, le fe'ese'esea'iga ma le (tai foliga ea), o se tama'i vevesi pe a talanoaina lenei mataupu.  Ae ou te lē mautinoa pe ou te ola pea i lenei lalolagi; pe ou te oti muamua ona fa'atoā toe afio mai le Alii.  Atonu o se mea e lē tatau ona popole fua tagata i ai.  Ae e leai se mea o iai, pe a saga sauni pea ma fa'atali po o le ā le valaau e o'o mai ia te oe. E o'o mai lo'u oti - My death will come E lē mafai na galo - I will not forget Le mafutaga lilo - The hidden relationship Ma oe i so'o se aso - With you...

If you're like me, you probably didn't realise that Kate Winslet recorded some songs or you had no idea that she could sing.  Well, here we are.  I've had this song sitting in my ManuScript Drafts Spotify playlist for a while.  I didn't quite find the right moment to use this song in a blog post and it's only been in recent months that I realise that this song is actually appropriate to talk about, or use as a reflection - right now.  If you're only just starting to read my blogs and you're on Spotify, make sure you follow the Spotify playlist "ManuScript" where I've loaded all the songs I've blogged about.  Here I stand alone With this weight upon my heart And it will not go away In my head, I keep on looking back Right back to the start Wondering what it was that made you change When do you usually find yourself standing alone?  Normally when you are left to pick up the pieces that someone has left behind, or you are in a space w...

Wanna believe what you say But I hate you on most days You've been testing my faith and my patience And you know that I be headstrong But you know that you be dead wrong Telling me to relax when I'm reacting You know when you want to believe what they say, but you kind of at the time, had to suspend disbelief because it just seemed too good to be true?  Well, you should've gone with your gut instinct.  It was too good to be true.  And try as hard as he might, to have promised you the world or at least try to connect with all of the things that he knew was important to you - how can you believe those things again?  We hate people on most days because they give us reason to hate them. Why are they so surprised when things seem different, or that, you've changed? What did they think would happen?  When you get asked a question and they don't like the answer, and then attack you then say you're reacting?  What kind of tomfoolery is that? You're trying to...

Baby, you know that I love ya But you don't seem to care whether I'm here nor there You treat me mean and keep me keen Just pulling me along on a string  Do you know someone who treats you mean to keep you keen?  Have you fallen for that trap?  They won't care about your comings and goings.  They couldn't care less about what you did or said.  Is this what happens naturally in situations when you least expect it?  Where do we get the social cues wrong?  Are we interpreting mixed messages?  Sometimes people are different when they are on their own with you, and then completely different in front of an audience.  Granted it's hard to be your authentic self at all times because not everybody accepts you for who you are. You just keep stringing me along, you just keep stringing me along And I would rather be strung along than never see you at all You're so mean to me but I would rather be At your beck and call than never hear from you a...

You said I, I didn't do anything wrong But there must've been somethin' I could've done better  Oh, oh you said I, I didn't do anything wrong But there's must've been somethin' I could've done better It is always hard to know if you have done something wrong.  Especially if you don't know because you are never told, or nothing is ever revealed - no notice.  Nothing.  Zip.  But you learn to figure out what to do with the rest of your time while the rest of you waits in silence for all to be made known in time.  Do you think about the things that you could've done better?  People always want to go back and do things again, have the chance to either make things right or to say what was really burning on their mind.  When someone tells you that you've done nothing wrong, do you believe them?  How do you know for sure that even when they say you don't, it still kind of feels like you did but you're not sure? Did you want me at h...