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Heavy. . .

When it feels like I can barely breathe
Hardest question inside of me
Wby are you put down, O my soul?
Don't you know that God is in control?
When I feel I'm at capacity
And it's hard to tell others what's happening, oh
Why do I feel so afraid?
When I know that God can make a way?
Lord please take over

Have you been finding it hard to breathe lately? You may find yourself trapped in situations with people or places that you did not find yourself being in. You may explain it away as it being - it is what it is. But what really is it? Why do you find it hard to tell others what is happening with you? Maybe you need to figure out it for yourself before you can articulate it to others. Do you know what your capacity is? Sometimes we forget that part of the capacity that we hold, also needs to take into account some space for ourselves to hold, so that we allow some healing space when we need it. Who else and where else will you be able to recuperate? Never let fear of the unknown steal your greatest achievements to come. 

When I'm feeling heavy, heavy
When life gets me down and I'm overwhelmed
You lift me, lift me
I may be cast down but
I'm, I'm not destroyed
No, I'm not, no
Thank you Lord for keeping me

If you are not being lifted - by anyone - or anything in your life - it is definitely time to distance yourself from people and things that are heavy. What is weighing you down in your life? What is threatening to overwhelm you and keep you further away from the happiness you seek? Who benefits from your destruction? Self destruction is the game changer you never see coming because you bring yourself down if you're not careful. You may be questioning how long you are going to be kept down, but remember that these days will not last long and they too shall pass.

No, it's not healthy to try and carry on like you're okay (like you're okay)
But deep inside you just want to run away, away
Don't you know that God can heal your pain?
The darkest of your secrets, the hurt nobody knows
God is sending relief, oh

Do you know what's healthy anymore? Have you tried to carry on long past your own expiry date? We try to hold it altogether and continue to be strong for others, but we neglect our own selves in the process. Why do you seek healing in the wrong places from all the wrong faces? There is no need to afraid of your darkest secrets. Those things that are kept in the dark will soon be brought to light, and in safe spaces that you will soon learn to navigate in due course. Trust the process if you can't trust the people. This is the only way you learn to mininise your own disappointment in others, by first mastering your own disappointment in yourself.


When you're feeling heavy, heavy, woah
When life gets you down and you're overwhelmed
He's there, He is there
He's there to answer your cry
You're not destroyed (No, no, He says to you)
You're not destroyed (here's a reminder)
You may be hurting, but oh you're not destroyed
Hm, anybody feel me?
Da-da-da-da-da-

Being alone in your stance in life can be a daunting prospect. Standing in solidarity can continue to be challenging when you don't have a squad to rely on to push you through and keep you sustained. Trying to balance the energy that you bring to each occasion you attend comes with knowing when to contribute and when to attribute things to others. Being forced to respond to situations that you are not prepared for or feel ambushed with, will provide opportunities for growth or more teething problems to work through. Trust in yourself to feel your way through, even when you don't recognise where you are or where you think you need to be.

Devil, talking to ya
You tried it (tried messing with my mind)
Don't you know (don't you know)
You better ask someone who you're messing with
I'm still standing right here
Devil, hey, ooh
You tried it, tried it, woah
Tried to break me, and crush me and take me
Don't you know the God that I serve?

You know deep within yourself whether you need to be more vigilant around matters that concern you, concern your life and the type of life you want to lead. Have you let the Devil mess with your mind? You might think you're safe, you may think you're not. There are definitely more opportunities for temptations, for poor decision making, for epic mistakes that should force you to question your life choices. In saying that, to each other own. Recognise that you are more resilient than you think. There are more sunny days ahead for you if you know where to look. Stand in the sun for once and soak it up. Too often you duck from the sun's warmth and don't enjoy how it kisses each part of you.

Ooh, oh, it gets heavy sometimes (sometimes)
(I'm not destroyed)
Speak to my heart, speak to my body 
(I'm not destroyed)
Even after everything I've been through
(I'm not destroyed)
I'm, I'm not, destroyed

I hope that you understand that you will not be destroyed. We tend to believe that when we hit rock bottom, that there is no hope, no sense of being able to see a way out of your predicament. I encourage you to think otherwise. We are only as strong as our thoughts will allow, so speak life in yourself, love the parts of you that nobody deserves to love or treat right. Never let yourself be defined by what people think they remember of you. If you are being the best version of yourself, you will be in a constant state of becoming, never being really satisfied at ever landing on your feet, because you are always flying, always on your way to the next part of your life, because you don't have time to be feeling heavy. . . 

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