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Crying in the rain. . .

I'll never let you see
The way my broken heart is hurting me
I've got my pride and I know how to hide
All the sorrow and pain
I'll do my crying in the rain

The song opens with the soft sound of rainfall before the band entry and the sound of thunder strikes.  The vocal harmony is very interesting.  I guess for me because their most famous track being Take on me which has more call and response featured, it is nice to hear the interplay between the two vocal lines.  I had never heard this cover version of the song until last week.  Why do we choose never to have people not see us at our most vulnerable?  There may not be many times that you have been able to see people at their weakest point because being able to be real or sharing your real feelings is only reserved for those who can understand how best to react to you without judgement (and that could quite possibly be the longest sentence I've ever written without punctuation lol).  Do you let your pride stop you from showing what it means to be hurt and in pain?  When you no longer have no inhibitions about who sees you in states of sorrow, only then will those states be able to pass naturally into your next phase of healing.

If I wait for cloudy skies
You won't know the rain from the tears in my eyes
You'll never know that I still love you
So though the heartaches remain
I'll do my crying in the rain

Is there even such a thing as being able to schedule those cloudy skies?  We might feel the need to compartmentalise when you are able to grieve or release any type of sadness that lingers in your heart.  I have had an interesting weekend of listening to people and recognising their journeys.  People talked about things that affected them personally and it was an interesting experience, especially if they have not disclosed such information about themselves to me in the past.  There might even be times when you wait for current seasons of grief to be used as platforms to relive past seasons of grief that have yet to be fully expended.  This may also be a natural process of being able to build empathy and mirror the melancholy of the most recent occasion. 


Raindrops falling from heaven
Will never wash away my misery
But since we're not together
I'll wait for the stormy weather
To hide these tears I hope you'll never see

The misery that never goes away, will eventually go away all in good time - when it is time to move into the next learning phase of your life.  You might be experiencing levels of anguish that nobody can really understand how to pull you through.  That isn't really anybody's job but yours really; how to be able to navigate your way through your own distress, discomfort and desolation.  Having the patience with yourself to be able to establish the presence of mind to be self-aware takes practice and a real sense of understanding yourself well.  When you least expect it, there will be times for you to consider whether hiding your tears will continue to be viable.  When will you be able to bypass the need to wait for stormy weather? 

Someday when my crying's done
I'm gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun
I may be a fool, but till then, darling, you'll 
Never see me complain
I'll do my crying in the rain
I'll do my crying in the rain
I'll do my crying in the rain
I'll do my crying in the rain

I hope that when your crying is done that you will be able to wear that smile and walk in the sun.  We may have the inclination to complain but then find that there is no real value or purpose in doing so.  Instead, we focus on ways to do our best to honour the memories of the loved ones we have lost, the memories of those we are no longer connected with and people that may come to rely on you when they never saw that as a remote possibility.  What makes you a fool?  Was it your life choices and things that have lead you to where you are right now?  Everyone is only so much a fool as they see themselves.  We can be foolhardy without being complete fools, just carry out foolish actions.  But after all is said and done, when you feel comfortable with being able to cry in the open without having to hide, you keep doing you, even if it means that you will have to do your crying in the rain. . . 

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