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Hard place. . .

Wanna believe what you say
But I hate you on most days
You've been testing my faith and my patience
And you know that I be headstrong
But you know that you be dead wrong
Telling me to relax when I'm reacting

You know when you want to believe what they say, but you kind of at the time, had to suspend disbelief because it just seemed too good to be true?  Well, you should've gone with your gut instinct.  It was too good to be true.  And try as hard as he might, to have promised you the world or at least try to connect with all of the things that he knew was important to you - how can you believe those things again?  We hate people on most days because they give us reason to hate them. Why are they so surprised when things seem different, or that, you've changed? What did they think would happen?  When you get asked a question and they don't like the answer, and then attack you then say you're reacting?  What kind of tomfoolery is that? You're trying to answer the question they asked.

But I, I'd rather fight
Than lose sleep at night
At least you're all mine
And if I have to choose
My heart or you
I'm gonna lose, yeah

I'm normally not a fighter.  I avoid confrontation if I can.  But that doesn't mean that I won't fight or won't confront people if the situation warrants it.  I just don't see the need to fight when people provoke you for the sake of seeing you react.  The irony of attacking you for reacting, when they instigated it all in the first place.  Why should you lose sleep at night?  We worry too much about people and issues that are not of our own doing.  Granted we care about people and want to make sure that we do all in our power to support them and care for them.  But if they continually keep pushing the envelope, you have to start making choices between their shenanigans and your sanity.



What if nothing ever will change?
Oh I'm caught between your love and a hard place
Oh I wish there was a right way
I'm caught between your love and a hard place, oh
Whoa, oh oh whoa, oh oh whoa, oh oh whoa

I'm not sure what being caught between love and a hard place is these days.  What we might have considered being love, someone's love for us can differ from person to person.  We never really know if what they are offering is love or pity.  Maybe it's a combination of both.  What right way is there to remove yourself from being forced to make such a decision.  One thing you can do is watch yourself get pushed away before you take yourself out of the equation and just leave.  What if what they were feeling was love but they didn't know how to deal with it, so they resort to mistreating you so that you stop showing up?  That's completely possible.

Do I even have a choice when 
I'm gonna have to pick my poison
Yeah you hurt me so good, it's so good
And even when you cause tears
You're the one who wipes them away
Maybe that's the reason I stay, I stay

I hope that if you have been in a relationship, in a friendship, that you start to learn to be kind to yourself.  You should never have to suffer at the hands of someone else, especially when their problems and issues are pre-existing, and now they are taking it out on you.  There is nothing you can do to help someone or support someone who is hell-bent on living a destructive lifestyle.  They might have spent some time trying to live right and get on track, but pretty soon, their old ways resurface and they lack the self-discipline to stay focused and start winning in their own lives.  I guess this is what most women have to make a choice about: caught between your love and a hard place. . . 

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