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Autumn's Song . . .

Have you been outside lately?
Those leaves sure are changin'
Reminds me of that time we spent hours carvin' faces
Making jack-o-lanterns light up in the night 
It's an image that's ingrained inside my mind

Do you have distinct seasonal memories that play themselves in your mind?  Do you have any particular memories from autumn? I'm sure we all know what those memories are, who those memories are made with.  When you forget memories, you will always have someone remind you of what they shared with you when you least expect it.  Depending on how you are feeling at the time, you might not be sure quite how to take it. We may find ourselves spending too much time indoors and neglect to see what is really happening in the outside world.  What images do you have ingrained in your mind?  Do you analyse if those ingrained memories can be sorted into categories?  Most ingrained memories might be you observing someone you are sharing those times with, seeing how happy they are to be with you at that moment.  You wonder, will I ever feel like that again?

Well that year spent waiting
Walking empty pavement
I got by just fine
Didn't notice what was vacant
Fill the space of you the same

What lonely walks do you find yourself having now?  Solitary moments can be quite telling.  They can reveal your innermost thoughts that continue to swim around in your head.  the noises of the street may either complement or jar against your thoughts.  You might catch pockets of sound that remind you of something else that connects with your thoughts.  You may see a glimpse of something that resonates with a train of thought that you are currently entertaining.  Why do you spend time waiting?  What are you even waiting for?  Maybe the pavement is empty now because you choose to walk alone, you don't want anybody around to walk near you again.  The space being vacant suggests that you're waiting for someone to occupy that space again.  Would you fill it with someone the same?


I'm still fallin' out of love with you
And I'm headin' for the door
Not sure if I'll go through
Memories they take so long to erase
Will they ever even start to fade?

You have many doors ahead of you now.  Stop searching for me behind that door.  I may not be standing there.  I might be behind another door hiding or choosing to not be near any doors for that matter.  If you are trying to walk through a door and people are trying to block you from getting through it, because they are trying to force you through a door that they insist you join them at, you have every right to walk away and choose your own door.  If you are unsure about whether you will go through that door, or any door that you happen to be by, you can totally take some time to decide what door to go through.  For whatever reason you find that you cannot make it through that door, that's on you.  There's nothing worse than someone trying to force you to remember things that you would rather forget.  We are all guilty of that sometimes.  But when people want you to stay in a bubble of a world that isn't of your making, it is no wonder that you would like those memories to fade.

When the nights get cold
Sometimes I look over
I see you by the fire with your hands out in the open
And I wonder if you're singing Autumn's Song
Or if I'm singing all alone
I must be singing on my own

Does someone wait for you to sing your song?  As a musician, I have always had certain songs that I have shared with people, songs that are associated with memories and times spent together with friends and loved ones.  When I hear those songs, those memories come flooding back.  I never feel the same way every time I hear the song, I can replay back in my mind like in a panoramic view, what was in the room, what was said, who was there and how we all felt.  Sometimes I think it's a curse rather than a blessing, but as those memories with loved ones, especially those with loved ones who are no longer in this realm continue to decrease, the light that lives on beyond them is that much more precious, never to diminish.

I'm still fallin' out of love with you
And I'm headin' for the door
Not sure if I'll go through
Memories they take so long to erase
Will they ever even start to fade?
I'm on my way
Just not today

Who have you fallin' out of love with?  It can be with friends or loved ones who you have outgrown, people who have taken up too much of your time and energy, people you have invested countless hours, even though they never do what they have resolved to do, so their little situations remain unsolved and unresolved.  But we forget that memories can be replaced.  They can be replaced with new memories and new people that won't treat you like you have been treated in the past.  You can choose to relive or honour the memories of those who deserve to be remembered.  You can erase the memories of those people who no longer deserve a place with you.  I hope that you understand that there will be times that you will lose people because they were never meant to be had.  There will be times when people will lose you too because of the fact that you weren't meant to be held back either.  I guess when all is said and done, if you choose to, you can either sing all alone or on your own.  I guess that's up to you and your autumn's song. . . 

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