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Show me the way. . .

See I don't want to come out too confident
I've travelled many roads but not quite as smooth as this
'Cause you, are picturesque like the morning sun
So close I think I can touch you, yet the distance is so far

Yet you come across as a super confident person.  I think people look at you and think you have it all together because all they see is confidence and a sure-footed assuredness that few people possess.  I know you have travelled many roads.  Not many people would have travelled them as willingly as you did, and that shows a lot about your strength of character - fearlessness or foolishness?  Maybe it was a combination of both.  If you think I look picturesque, maybe it's because the way I carry myself reminds you of a painting that you want to study and take in all of the different elements that make up my picture.  You never really know whether the physical touch is meant to happen or not.  You can always be close and still so far.

And I, am open wide and vulnerable
Wherever you wanna take me, girl, I'm so down to go

I'm not sure that you're ready to be open wide and vulnerable. I mean, you have been, to a certain extent.  But I think when you open yourself wide and leave yourself vulnerable, it's hard to clam up again and all of a sudden change the dynamics yet again.  Sometimes when we say things, they might not match the actions that we feel we are doing.  Do you think we deliberately trick ourselves into believing that we can live this way?  If I take you to places that I want to show you, will you be ready to go there?  There have been many times where I have tried to show people new places to go, and they seemed down with it.  But I would always catch fleeting glimpses of nerves that fought to keep their fear and anxiety contained - fear of being seen, anxiety about not knowing how to behave in social settings.

Just show me, yeah (show me the way to your heart)
I won't let go
I promise to protect you, life's taught me many lessons
Just show me, yeah (show me the way to your heart) 
I won't let go
These feelings I'm possessing can't never be neglected 

You ask questions about my feelings, how I have been in previous relationships. You try to understand the decisions that I have arrived at through thoughts, the thinking process that I went through.  Then the comparisons and judgements come.  These are natural because they are the tools that you use to make sense of what I say, but it doesn't make it any easier to deal with, doesn't make it any easier to be compared to people I don't know.  What is the way to my heart?  Just when I think I know what I want in my heart, I actually don't.  Someone asked me recently - do you want to be in love?  I can't answer that.  Relationships are just too hard.  Especially when people make promises that they can't keep.  Especially when people throw their words around like they mean nothing.  You said you wouldn't let go.  Why are you neglecting these feelings that you might be possessing?


Time don't exist when I'm with you
I lose myself in wondering if you feel it too
'Cause I feel like dancing on the moon
Everytime I look down, I see the light in you yeah

There are only a few people in the world that you will spend time with where time doesn't exist.  Time is only used as a way of conditioning us into thinking that we are running out of it, losing it, not making the most of it.  We never just let time be and just sit in it.  Enjoying what time there is for what needs to be experienced.  I don't have to wonder if you feel the same about time because you've already talked about it.  You can never really tell how someone feels about you unless they show you, tell you (and even then, do you believe them?).  What are you prepared to lose yourself in?  Are you one to lose yourself in your thoughts?  I can easily lose myself in thoughts.  Have whole conversations in my head and not even tell people what I was talking about to myself, what I was thinking to myself.

And you, you are like the missing part of me
I never knew that I was hollow until you filled me
And girl, I'm closing my eyes, now take my hand
And lead me to the part of you that made me a better man

Rare connections are just that, rare.  People spend too much time trying to figure out why the connection is there - you can't explain it - it just is.  Do you know what parts of you are missing? You never really know what's missing until you feel buoyant again, you feel a little less empty than you were before.  You might have to start teaching yourself how to be less hollow, to fill your own caverns and crevices with your own special formula to hold yourself together.  If you were to close your eyes and let me take your hand, would you be willing to see where I helped to make you a better man?  I wouldn't even need to show you where.  You know exactly where to go yourself.

You see love just happened to be a beautiful thing
And you see, some choose to disagree
And some choose to look the other way
Love is a divine power
Sing along with Maurice y'all, come on

Love can only be a beautiful thing if you choose to make it a thing of beauty.  If people twist and turn love into something that they can use as a weapon against others - then that's where I disagree.  What's with all the ammo?  Why retain all this information if only to hurt someone in the end?  Why would you subject yourself to that?  Sometimes I feel like love is a marathon that you run by yourself, with loads of other people around you.  It's chaotic and people are everywhere.  You might have some supporters yelling at you from the sidelines, criticising your running technique.  Some might tell you to give up the race or try to take you off the track.  Others might try to encourage you to keep going because you're almost at the finish line.  Whichever way you decide to turn, know which people are going to be there for you no matter what.

Baby, the heavens leased your soul to me, child
If you can find a place (show me the way to your heart)
Somewhere in your heart baby
Come on baby, come on baby
Your love is just so precious to me
I feel the time is here (show me the way to your heart)
Show me your biggest heart baby
Come on lady, come on lady
(Your love is so precious to me)

I hope that people show more of their hearts.  If you're like me and have had your heart broken because you have lost a loved one, I think people need to know when to step away and let you figure out how to love again.  There are so many people that mean well - but none of them are widows.  They don't know your journey and what you should be feeling like and how you should be, romantically speaking.  I will gladly show people the way to my heart because a heart is meant to love and be loved in return.  I challenge anybody who hasn't lost a husband to try and tell me any different.  Sit down and be quiet.  There is a way of being straight up or honest without ruining your friendship.  If you think you've got it on lock, be my guest and show me the way. . . 

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