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You say. . .

I keep fighting voices in my mind that say I'm not enough
Every single lie that tells me I will never measure up
Am I more than just the sum of every high and every low?
Remind me once again who I am because I need to know (ooh oh)

Sometimes you are your own worst enemy.  You might be experiencing huge doubts of self-doubt, that you will not be able to complete tasks set before you that would normally have been easy to finish.  Those negative voices in your head that stop you from living your true potential, those negative voices in your head that have taken what others might have said to you growing up, may now have morphed into your own voice.  Which version of yourself - through all of the highs, through all of the lows do you want to be?  We examine the character of who we are in every victory and triumph, in every loss and failure.  We may even question who we are because we have forgotten and lost parts of ourselves along the way.  We may even fight against ourselves to return to simplicity.

You say I am loved when I can't feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don't belong, you say I am yours
And I believe, oh I believe
What you say of me, I believe

How do you know you are loved?  We expect to feel all of the things that the world tells us when we are being loved.  We expect to see and feel these things through the usual channels because that is where we have looked for them in past experiences.  How do you know that you are strong? You have been strong because you have had to be, you have been conditioned to survive severe tragedy and overcome adversity at every turn so that you can help others do the same.  You start to wonder when you are being held because you don't know what that even feels like anymore.  Being physically held may now be replaced by actions of others who have fought tooth and nail for you, replaced now by words of those who have vouched for you in places you can never go.

The only thing that matters now is everything You think of me
In You I find my worth, in You I find my identity (ooh oh)

Do you think about what He thinks of you?  People talk often about how they do things for the glory of God.  That's a really simple thing to say, but hard to really put into action.  You might be the type of person who when they think of something, they can act on it, putting their decision to fruition.  Every action that you take and every word that you speak - will they bring Him glory?  I sometimes question whether what I am doing or saying is everything He has ever wanted me to fulfil. I can often tell when I know that I am doing His will.  There is a feeling of elation or euphoria that I know isn't from this world.  It's hard to describe at times because until you feel, you won't really know what I'm talking about.  We must remember that finding our worth and identity cannot be found from others, but through the anointing of what we can do with that worth, and that identity to help elevate others.



You say I am loved when I can't feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don't belong, you say I am yours
And I believe, oh I believe
What you say to me, I believe

Are you having trouble knowing where you belong?  I guess it comes from when you feel like you don't belong, whether others inadvertently make you feel unwelcome, I mean is that intentional?  Unless they blatantly tell you to your face, then you don't really know whether you are made to feel like you belong or not - to a group that you want to belong to or not.  There is something to be said to belong to where you feel that you don't.  There might be someone who goes out of their way to make you feel that there will be an unconditional place for you.  To be able to make someone feel like they belong, even when they have wronged you countless times or make no effort to reciprocate, takes patience and utter faith, where others see nothing at all.

Taking all I have and now I'm laying it at your feet
You have every failure God, and You'll have every victory (ooh oh)

What have you learned about yourself over the years?  What are you going to lay down at His feet as gifts of gratitude?  We often go to Him during difficult times and forget to praise Him for everything good that comes our way too.  How much joy and rejoicing can you hold in your heart?  We are always quick to retain the pain and loss in our hearts because it then becomes a form of self-punishment, self-flagellation at its worst if you are inclined to keep beating yourself up for everything.  Having Him be aware of all of the things that you could not finish, and all of the things that you have may be the connection that you should be focusing on, rather than seeking external validation.  

You say I am loved when I can't feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don't belong, you say I am yours
And I believe, oh I believe
What you say of me, I believe


I hope that you find the way to believe in yourself.  There will always be moments of self-doubt and these moments are completely natural.  But rather than focus on those moments to stop you from doing what needs to get done, instead use those moments to fuel against them, to rage against your own negativity that steers you away from the path to glory, not yours, but His.  When will you believe what He says of you?  Will you find someone in this realm who has the same unconditional belief in you as He does?  Maybe.  But until you can believe in yourself and what you can do, take it from me, as someone who takes little heed of others say about me, I can always trust that when He speaks to me, I believe what He says.  It's taken me a while to really hear what is being said. Sometimes you are your own worst enemy, but God, what you say of me, I believe. . . 

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