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Before the dawn. . .

Thought I saw you smile, underneath you were frowning
Thought I saw you wave, but you must have been drowning

When do you know how someone is really feeling, actually feeling about themselves and life in general?  Sometimes people spend time hiding their true feelings because they don't think others around them know how to "be" with them in that sense.  We are trusting the wrong people, aren't we?  Or are we trying to figure out how to trust people by testing their reactions to whatever you tell them? You would like to think that your friends and close ones are able to disclose their feelings about anything and everything that they feel they need to share.  If you are a really good observer or listener - you should be able to see past what you are initially presented with.  Maybe people are waiting for you to take notice.

What's a rose without a thorn?
What is calm without a storm?
I can't say I know what you're going through
I know you won't find peace without a war
The finest silk can still be torn
And it's always darkest before the dawn

Do you take the time to recognise the negative effects of an environment that your loved ones are in?  It is important to be aware of what support you are able to give them.  It sometimes makes my heart cry to know that we can have family members suffer in silence.  Those with mental health issues that develop over time may well often not know how to ask you for help.  Would you know what to do when faced with the task of looking out for their welfare?  Sometimes all I want to do is just hug them tight and cocoon them safely away from their own negative and harmful thoughts about themselves.  It is extremely heartbreaking to know that you have to help them battle themselves. 

So keep your head up
Keep your head up
My love

I cannot stand when people try to keep your head low.  They want to see you fail, they want to see you suffer. For the most part, people want to see you hurting, because they hurt.  Where is the logic in this?  I guess it's their warped way of trying to make you feel their pain as well.  Is this how we are punishing each other these days?  Forcing people to feel our pain because we lack the language skills to articulate what is inside our minds?  You may tell yourself often, that trying to keep your head up is as hard as trying to keep your eyes open so that you know how to move forward, one step at a time. 




When you feel alone and the room is overcrowded 
I want you to know you could talk to me about it, darling

I don't know about you but I actually prefer having people caught and enraptured in a deep and meaningful conversation, rather than holding court with a litany of followers and fanboys that go nowhere.  How do you behave in an overcrowded room?  It is easy to blend into the walls and stand there silently, listlessly watching people.  The younger version of yourself would've walked into that gathering and scanned the room quickly, frantically searching out a familiar face that will be 'home' for you for the rest of the night.  The older I get, the less I feel the need to 'belong' to the room.  I think that has a lot to do with professionally not feeling like I've belonged in a room for a very long time.

Oh-oh-oh
Too many words going unspoken
And oh, my door will always be open
What's a heart if it's never been broken

Do you have many unspoken words?  How many times have you regretted never being able to say all that you wanted to say, and then you beat yourself up about it afterward as you walk away because you let the moment pass by.  I would like to think that people would always be able to come to find me, come to say what they need to.  I would like to think that I am a very approachable person who knows what to say to a lonely person in a room.  I would also like to think that I will live this life to the fullest, even if it does mean having my heart broken several times over.  At least then I would know that my heart is alive, even when it's being hurt and bruised.

What's a rose without a thorn?
What is calm without a storm?
I can't say I know what you're going through
I know you won't find peace without a war
The finest silk can still be torn
And it's always darkest before the dawn

Learn to embrace the darkness that comes with the light.  We cannot only live in the goodness, but also thrive in what seems wicked, because if we cannot know how to survive during difficult times, then we never really get to appreciate the easy times.  When we are in the relaxing parts of any situation, we should always be prepared, we should always learn to know our reactions and responses so that we master ourselves.  You're probably thinking, what on earth is she going on about, and that's totally fine.  What I'm trying to say is that even when we don't know what somebody might be going through - these are FIVE of the best ways for you to help someone who is going through something or to keep yourself in check and not THEIR situation, about you:

1) Listen carefully to what they are saying, what they are not saying
2) Pay attention to how they are sharing their feelings, their situation
3) Do not interrupt.  This is not your time to talk. Only your time to listen
4) Wait.  If there are awkward silences, sit in that awkwardness and be still.
5) Do not be afraid to say nothing.  Sometimes just being there is enough. It's all that counts.

Keep your head up
Keep your head up
My love

I hope that if someone is going through something significant in your life, that you are able to be exactly what is needed for that exact moment.  If you are having trouble keeping your head up, you have a number of options to consider.  You could lean your head on my shoulder, lean your head in my hands to catch a blessing or lower your head so I whisper in your ear to keep your head up. . . 

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